The Dark Night

I've had the dark night twice before. Both experiences very harrowing. This time was no different.

It was a shedding of who I thought I was . . . All the losses of the former life so heavy, I struggled to breathe. Ushering in a sense of panic that I am in the hole and I have not one ounce of strength to lift me out. Where all the confidence I had for the actions of the past year feel like foolish recklessness.

And then the sun comes up ushering out the darkness and reminding me that I just endured another shedding of the ego. And now my eyes are open wider than they ever have before. Where my cry out to God was answered. Sat nam (sanskrit meaning "I am truth").